Missing you.

I miss you. I keep thinking in what should have been. If you were here, if you could stay, what would life be? I dont know but somedays I just rather dont think about it, so the pain will be a lot bigger. I cannot understand why the world is still on Going. You were pure innocence, so so so pure. Pureness, thats what your life was made of. You could only stay for 11 short years. I cannot image your fear when you were told you were extremelly hill, when your mother hold you screaming, telling herself it had to be a lie.. Telling the world, pretending it was not happening, that her child was Ok, and that was not dying. when your hair started falling, what did you think? I think you looked beutifull, with your big green eyes. what did you feel when nurses hold you, to inject in you so many liquids, that you didnt even know what were they for.. what did you think, princess? You will always be here, and I know you are waitting patiently for me.. I promisse Im on my way. I guess in the end, everything turned too clear, you had to let go, to go home. and we accepted it, although it hurted, it was the best way to give you wings, knowing you were the strongest little Girl.

Marta Bessa 1995-2006

I x

Happy 9th Birthday to My doggy.

3 years since I held you in my arms. 3 loving years since I looked trough your eyes of Dog and realized you were in Pain and needed someone to look after you and take care of you, but especially, Love you because you were only a little dog. 3 years since I touched your soft skin, and smelled you. 3 years since that beutifull day I got it. 3 years since you seemed to love - only - me. 3 years since I felt in love with you. My Kooky, My world. yep, you're 9 Now, or at least, more or less. I found you abandoned on the street, 9/9/2006, exactly 3 years ago, tonight, I was looking at you, trough the window, upstairs thinking "Oh My God, thanks God I have you". 3 years ago, I was holding you, cuddling you next to me in the street. 3 years ago, I saw you for the first time, in the back of my building, I knew you had to be mine, and only mine. 3 years ago, I told my mum I'd go playing to the backyard, but I was lying, I wanted to see you closely, when nobody was touching you, when nobody was touching my sunshine. and then I saw you, I know you knew I really cared, I was there to rescue you. I was 10 back in that time. I just loved you so much. 3 years ago I cried tears and tears, untill it got a tear, for my mum to let me stay with you. she recuntly said "yes.." But I think she regret, be sure I dont. 3 years ago, I made my promisse "Ill always take care of you" Im sorry if this has not been what you expeted, I know Im inresponsible and sometimes I leave you alone for hours, But I love you so much.

You should be 9, or apx 9. I decided this was your birthday day when I found you, "why not celebrate all in the same day?" . I love you My Kooky, now and forever.

HAPPY 9TH BIRTHDAY (9/9/09)

03/09/09

woah. Raquel.. I love you Girl, Happy Birthday.. Im so Happy I met you. Ive known you since you were 3 months old, back in december 1995, I was still 1 month, we were both cute and Little and yet, so innocent.. we've Grown together since then, and you never left me for one single second, Looked like it was defenetely meant to be. "Its a charmed life innoncence's wild :)" .

If you only knew How much I love you, Saturday, we're we Go :') To your wonderfull party and Ill get so many photographies Girl, I love you so.

14 years of wonder and magic. 14 charmed years of our lifes. 14, 14 summers, 14 christmas.. all Together, I love you Girl ;D Never leave me, Never ever Never leave me..

Bárbara.

yes, My buddie booh Girl. She's so funny.

Bárbara always was, Ive known her for years Now and I love to capture her face on my photographies. Not only because she's so shy in front of a camera, but because she always looks great and diferent from anybody else. she can pose so shyly, and still, look like she's not shy at all. She's got a very different and uncommun face, I mean, not that angelical smile and rose cheeckies, But she's Got a beutifull and far away look, and I so love her.

Me:"Let me take a picture of you.."

Her: "why should I let you?"

Me: "Because you look Gorgeous in all of them"

Her: "No I dont,"

Me: "Thats what you say 'cause you're in the other side of the camera"

Her: "Ok, Mr. Photographer"

Her: "Dont take me more"

Me: "I love you Buddie"

Her: "I love you too silly But I dont want to smile"

Me: "Just look natural and simple"

Her: "But Im not simple"

:)